Finding Myself and God Along The Way

Have you ever felt lost or not headed in any particular direction? I have and I'm sure many of you have as well. I guess about five years ago I started to feel like I was missing something. I had a great job but yet it was not fulfilling any more. I know that I needed to move on. I started searching for something else. I started finding myself also searching for something which I found out was God.

I asked all the normal questions like is there really a God. If so, why is the earth is such trouble? Why are people killing others and why is there so much suffering throughout the world.

I seemed to loose faith in my religion when I started not agreeing with some of the teachings. I knew that dancing was OK. I felt that God did not care if you wore pants or a dress.  I felt the religions seems to have such double standards.  i.e. They could have fish fry's on Friday and serve alcohol which was acceptable but it was frowned upon if you drank alcohol.  I felt that love was a big part of the answer but yet, I was horrified to actually admit that I did not fully agree with the religion that I had been taught was the only way to live and love God.

I started searching for what spirituality meant to me. I knew that I loved God and he/she loved me.  I knew that I didn't need to explain this to anyone because God knew.  I started questioning that like -  I believed in past lives which I was taught "did not happen". I did not believe in "hell or the devil" and I grew up being told that I was a sinner and that if I was not "good" I would go to hell and burn forever.  I do not believe that God is vengeful or wants us to be in misery.  I think in a lot of ways that we bring in on ourselves, not necessarily by choice but consciously and subconsciously via our thoughts and actions.

I guess that I started to see things differently in my life. I started to not care what others were thinking of me. I started to read as much as possible. From Dr. Joseph Murphy, Dr. Wayne Dyer, Louise Hay and John Randolph Price just to name a few. I also read the wonderful books by Neale Donald Walsch. These have all helped me along my path to God.

Their wisdom and insight into the real love that God shares with all of us is amazing. I know in my heart that I am heading down the correct spiritual path for me and that it is OK not to believe everything that I was taught as a child.

This is just my transition to the next stage of my life.